Pity Party

I woke up
In a new bed today
It’s my own, I guess
But it doesn’t feel that way

I'm so tired of the jet lag
I thought it was a hoax
This grown up shit is getting old

And I miss my mom
She thinks I'm doing well
She tells me that I'm better off by myself
That I don’t need anyone
But really

I'm scared of being lonely
My clothes are always dirty
I can’t get enough coffee
What can you do?

There’s dirt on my white shoes
I live in a living room
And I'm so scared to call you

But I'm throwing a party
And no it’s not a pity party
If you don’t like it just leave, I don’t need your pity
I just want a party

And I know
I seem like a lot right now
Both my socks and my pride are nowhere to be found
I guess this is just 20
I always feel like a joke
And it gets worse or that’s what I'm told

Oh I miss my friends
They pray I'm doing well
Maybe one day I’ll be better off by myself
And I won’t need anyone
But for now

I'm scared of being lonely
My clothes are always dirty
I can’t get enough coffee
What can you do?

There’s dirt on my white shoes
I live in a living room
And I'm so scared to call you

But I'm throwing a party
And no it’s not a pity party
If you don’t like it just leave, I don’t need your pity
I just want a party

(Party, I just want a party
Just want, just want
I just want a party
Just want, just want
I just want a party)