Johnny Moribund

I had a dream
Of rebirthing and growing as a team
But I've been shown
It's easier to pack your things and go
Because I know I'm pitiful
Like I know you're beautiful

But you'd thank me for my presence
You're welcome
I wish I'd held you closer and then some
Maybe then I needn't regret
That joy unmixed with sorrow is suspect

I said I'm sorry, you needn't worry
I'm sick of playing Johnny Moribund
Each day I wake to my impeccable mistake
And wonder why I pulled the plug

See the water spiral out
Shed my suit and wring it out
Ride the spiral to the flow
Shed my skin and let it go
But what I want is all I had
'Cause that's my pattern and always has been
And what I need is not a lot
Just to be glad of what I've got
A simple trick if you can get it right
And I'm still practicing...

A wiser man would fight back, return fire
But I put my tired brain out for the night
I wake up in the daylight with sore eyes
Startled by your heartbeat
Well, goodbye, love...

You went on fishing, I came in reeling
Headbutting concrete just to make a dent
It's so ironic that now you've caught it
You hurl it back 'cause it don't measure up
I said I'm sorry, you needn't worry
I'm sick of playing Johnny Moribund
Close your fragile petals to the rain
God knows I'm guilty of the same
Two lilies rooted in a stained bathtub
Each day I wake to my impeccable mistake
And wonder why I pulled the plug.