Something New

I dived so deep into my mind
But there was nothing but a blur
So abstract, hard to describe
I end up running out of words

Even if I dare pushing through my limits just to get somewhere
Somewhere I won't be reached by dispair
A place so far, yet so close

It would be no use, I got so far but my heart is entirely bruised
My sould is shattered and my mind ooh
So many thoughts on the loose

Through grief I resonate with the ones who feel the same
I wanna let go but I have so much to do
And my heart wouldn't take the thought of turning my back on you
That's just who I am, yeah, I feel too much
I'm trying my best but lately I've been craving for something new

I understood through all these years that suffering made me self aware
And at that point I realized I was too tired to be scared

Oh I miss the days enthusiasm filled in every word I'd say
And simple things would get me amazed
When did I get so numb?

But through that I've learned to be resilient so I could resist the urge
To give it up on who I once was
And who I can still become

I wanna let go but I have so much to do
And my heart wouldn't take the thought of turning my back on you
That's just who I am, yeah, I feel too much
I'm trying my best but lately I've been craving for something new

I feel too much, I'm trying my best
But lately I've been craving for something new