Headspace

I wake up
I stare at the void that's above
Content that it won't be too much
And nothing can come undone

The light clicks
The bulb is as bright as you'd think
But somehow despite all of this
The room is still white, you see it's unchanging
How it is

How I live

There's a girl and there's boy
And they fight over their toys
Even though they both should know to simmer down

There's a brother with some stamina
A boy who loves his camera
A sister who looks after everybody else

In shades of blue
And violet, and indigo, too
A vibrant hue

I'll take my cue
The symphony resumes
And I'm-

Awake in my room

Tell me to close my eyes
And I might just try it
Not so violent, shades of violet

Seeing in white and pastel shades
So that dark and black don't eat me away

In my mind
The chords align in
Perfect time and pitch and rhyme, still

Why is the melody that's played
So soft, it seems to drift away?

This tune has played too long
But I'm okay

My friend's gone
I couldn't have told you how long
I couldn't have said what was wrong
But somehow I think he's lost

I don't know
Wherever he maybe would go
But he's left his plants here, and so-
I'll stay here and water them, no need to leave-
Where I am

With my friends

But they say I have to go
And the next thing that I know
I am climbing up a ladder in the sky

But my friend, he isn't here
So I go back down the stairs-
Or the ladder-
Stairs-
No-one's there-

In spiders
Or in water, a desert or two?
What should we do?

In polaroids there's something there but
I'm reminded that within two days I move

Tell me to close my eyes
I will gladly try it
Not so violent, shades of violet

Seeing in white and pastel shades
So that dark and black don't eat me away

In my mind
The chords align in
Perfect time and pitch and rhyme, still-

Why is the melody that's played
So soft, just as I drift away

This tune has played too long
But I'm okay

The light that still surrounds me
Is fading soft and slow
The further that I'm searching
The deeper that I'm thrown

The eyes are on my ceiling
The eyes are in my head
The eyes are watching me
And they're telling me she's-

Stitching, cutting, sewing, playing
As my heart is palpitating
Intestines are spilling broken
To escape, please saw him open

Watch his face and watch it closely
Doors that shut reopen slowly
Wounds are searing, disappearing
Harming me, I'm interfering

Polarising polaroid's
Reckless, harmful, little boy
Careless, breaking up his toys
Traumatized by harmless noise

Strings break
Every single mistake
Piling up, I can't take
Anymore, my chest aches
For her sake or mine?
My time rewinds

The further that I go
The harder it becomes
To understand myself
So what if I succumb?

I've lost my right to be
The things that I can't see
Are eating at my brain
And telling me I'm weak

Tell me to close my eyes
And I might just try it
Not so violent, shades of violet

Staring at white and pastel shades
But the dark consumes me anyway

And over time
This world of mine has
Crumbled into silence

Why does this dissonance still play
So soft, and why do you still sway?!

Close my eyes
Or I'll slip by, and
Watch my silence turn to lying!

Painted in white and pastel shades
As bloodied darkness coats my face

This tune has played too long
It's all gone wrong!
I'm facing places beyond what I thought was okay
In this space
That I've made

This tune has played too long
In this headspace