Got What I Wanted

Broke down on the freeway
Can't believe I called my father
My accounts are overdrawn
I'm overworked and I'm so tired
Just tryna keep my head above the water, mm

He said you're anything but average
But somethin' doesn't add up
'Cause why do I feel damaged
When I do my best, but it's still not enough?
When life becomes work, what do I do for fun?

Hard to admit, on the tip of my tongue
I know I should love this, but this shit is messin' me up
And that really sucks, mm

I thought this would feel different
It'd be everything I wanted
But the only thing that's changed is
That everyone knows all my problems
But nobody knows how to solve 'em, mm
Pour my insides on the pages
Turn my feelings into profit
So I make all these mistakes
And I don't think I know how to stop it
But if I'm bein' honest
I guess that I got what I wanted

I used to hope that growin' up, people would stick around
But now I know enough, the ones that do just bring me down
They're tellin' me to swim while watchin' me drown
I'm usin' up all of my oxygen
To make sure that I know I won't be forgotten
'Cause one day when I'm gone
These songs will be the proof you weren't the only one

I thought this would feel different
It'd be everything I wanted
But the only thing that's changed is
That everyone knows all my problems
But nobody knows how to solve 'em, mm
Pour my insides on the pages
Turn my feelings into profit
So I make all these mistakes
And I don't think I know how to stop it
But if I'm bein' honest
I guess that I got what I wanted

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh
Oh, oh-oh, oh