I'm Not There

I'm so scared
Of the way I feel right now
Like I'm not there
'Cause I'm not there
Trapped by all these walls we've built
Trapped by all the shame and guilt
Like I'm not there
'Cause I'm not there

And that's just like me to stay
And that's just like you to fool
Me into thinking that you changed
But it's too late
We're already strangers
It's too late
It's too late

Words you shared
Blown like a brick to my chest
Knocked me sideways
And I can't unhear

And that's just like me to stay
And that's just like you to fool
Me into thinking that you've changed
But it's too late
We're already strangers
It's too late
It's too late

The words you shared
Blunt like a brick to my chest
Knocked me sideways
And I can't unhear

And that's just like me to stay
And that's just like you to fool
Me into thinking that you've changed
But it's too late
We're already strangers
It's too late
It's too late

Will we turn? Will we slide?
Back into a pattern
I don't wanna trace, don't wanna replay
But I'm not scared, I'm not ashamed
I'm not there, I'm not right
I don't recognize my life
I return, drawn to the false light
Every time, every time
I'm not there, I'm not right
How can this still be my life?
I return, every time
But I'm so done, I'm so done

I'm not there
I'm not there
I'm not there