Hospital Bed

What if I'm selfish?
What if I didn't give enough?
What if I'm guarded?
And never got to feel real love
What if there's more I never learned?
And I can't heal the ones I've hurt?
What if regret's all I deserve?
The day they put me in the dirt

It's haunting me, haunting me
Haunting me, haunting me
All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
It's calling me, calling me
Haunting me, haunting me
What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed
(It's haunting me, haunting me)
(Haunting me, haunting me)
What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed

What if I pushed out?
The ones they care the most
What if I'm too proud?
To let anybody close
What if I turn my heart of stone
'Cause nothing hurt when
What if I caught by let it go
And I'm the reason I'm alone?

It's haunting me, haunting me
Haunting me, haunting me
All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
It's calling me, calling me
Haunting me, haunting me
What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed
(It's haunting me, haunting me)
(Haunting me, haunting me)
What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed

(It's calling me, calling me)
(Haunting me, haunting me)
What am I gonna regret?

May sounds strange but I gotta confess
Since I was young I've been think about death
Stuck inside my mind, inside my mind
With the What if I's, What if I's

May sounds strange but I gotta confess
Since I was young I've been think about death
Stuck inside my mind, inside my mind
With the What if I's, What if I's

It's haunting me, haunting me
Haunting me, haunting me
All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
It's calling me, calling me
Haunting me, haunting me
What am I gonna regret?
What am I gonna regret?

(May sounds strange but I gotta confess
Since I was young I've been think about death)

What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed

(May sounds strange but I gotta confess
Since I was young I've been think about death)

What am I gonna regret?
Lying in my hospital bed

Was I too distant?
Disassociated my dad, too inconsistent
'Cause I never learned how to relax
Hearing, Baby, don't cry
He don't wanna play
Daddy's feeling anxious, give him some space
Memory lost that I can't replace
She'll be talking about me in therapy some day