My Own Miracle

Fake smiles are holding me together
For worse or for better 'cause I've never had anyone
To stay long enough to see the weather
The pain and the pressure I carry like a loaded gun

Been through things that you can't see
A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice
Rather hide when I'm hurting
Than be a burden 'cause all I know is

Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith I'd ever be found
Born into a hole six feet underground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle

Worked twice as hard through the diseases
And make up for the weakness, advice is not visible
No friends to pick up all the pieces
No sympathy or sweetness, no wonder I'm cynical

Walk the path that will kill most
Where a heart closed and you left to temper
I don't know how to love 'cause
I tried to trust but then I remembered

Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith I'd ever be found
Born into a hole six feet underground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle

Are you okay? You need to chat?
The questions I was never to ask
I should feel strong but I just feel sad
So just let me grieve what I never had

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down
They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud
Nobody had faith I'd ever be found
Born into a hole six feet underground
I had to love me when nobody cared
And be the family that never was there
Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual
Had to be my own, my own miracle