Detached

Is it fault or fate that I can't relate, my mind's impurities have left me empty.
Don't want to be detached but I'm fucking lost.
In my head, the things I can't control.
Slave to the eyes I see.
The enemy never leaves my sight. It's never ending, it's always wrong.
It's never easy, It's always wrong.
There's a battle in my head I know I'll never solve.
It's never ending. I'm lost in a world of people I ant to love but can't stand a minute in their gaze.
Night brings no relief, solitude for me.
Close my eyes and dream of a life I'll never have.
Where does it leave me?
Fucked up and disenchanted.
It's never ending, it's always wrong.
It's never easy, It's always wrong.
There's a battle in my head I know I'll never solve.
It's never ending.
Where's the life I dreamed?