Recluse

Is it the fear of feeling something or the fear of feeling nothing at all
Is it the choices I've made that's left me so vulnerable
All I know is that I'm hiding. I'm running away from what I wish I had
I guess that's just too bad

We were lacking something beautiful and it taught you not to trust
Whatever we had that day, it was never worth the rush
I just want to forget about everything that made me who I was
I'll shut myself out from the world

My walls have become my family, my friends, my home
And I've avoided the mirror for weeks just to feel alone
I'm scared of seeing the man I know, the man I loathe
I'll be alone, forever on my own

I'm just sitting here watching the time role by
To think my life's just passing through quicker every night
I've become so comfortable in this house
I've become so comfortable, just not in my skin

My walls have become my family, my friends, my home
And I've avoided the mirror for weeks just to feel alone
I'm scared of seeing the man I know, the man I loathe
I'll be alone forever on my own

We are all imperfect in our own way
We can change or simply stay the same
I've shed a tear for everyone I strung along
For every person that I've done wrong