Cruel Compensation

I’m resistant now to change
Feeling different can be very strange

I’m feeling a compelling urge
To enact some kind of purge
It’s not like me to feel this way
It’s not like me to feel this way

Cruel compensation, cruel compensation

Living a lie gets so easy to take
Because time has no friends no beginning or end
Perpendicular anomalies
Crowd my space and sap my energies
Take my weapon before I forget
And do somеthing that we both regret

It’s not likе me to feel this way
It’s not likе me to feel this way
It’s not likе me to feel this way

Cruel compensation, cruel compensation

Dynamite to the intellect, with an NDA
Not to resurrect, but to purify, not eliminate
Through a mental disorder we struggle to elevate
I‘m resistant now to change, feeling different can be strange
I am feeling a compelling urge, to enact some kind of purge

It‘s not like me to feel this way
It‘s not like me to feel this way

Dignity for the human race
Is like getting a leather boot in the face
It‘s an insult— that no one should ever have to
Take from the man who shouts out a command for
Respect and compliance— an act of defiance is
Everything— but it‘s never enough
Without energy— it‘s the only acceptable
Answer— and it‘s never enough
And it feels like it‘s going to be tough

Deficit and corrupted
Like an effigy without a soul-less intervention
With every intention of doing the wrong thing
And do it again and again and again to be
Sure that the damage is done

Cruel compensation— harsh situation
Deep penetration— serious resignation
It‘s not like me to— it’s not like me to
Feel this way— feel this way
It‘s not like me to— it’s not like me to
Feel this way— feel this way
It’s not like me to
Feel this, feel this, feel this, feel this, feel

Don’t make me do things that we’ll both regret
Saying things that I know I will soon forget
Paying the dividends, paying the dividends get what you get
Everything needs to get turned upside, turned upside down

It‘s not like me to