Ascension Denied

In the sunless fields of twilight dreams
The wings of unreality unfold
And though my eyes stare into what seems to be
There’s nothing there but the shadow of hope

And again i fall into the darkness
The only truth i’ve ever known
Forever denied to me the blessing of light
I curse the remnants of this life

Shadows of light rip through my mind
Tearing within my soul to fly
Won’t i open my eyes and die?
Oh please, let me die, oh please let me die

Here after i hear the wind calling
Like echoes of a vision forlorn
My name sung over and over again
Broken into laughter as i reach out

Why was i left to un-rest in this dark place?
When all i ever wished for was to end it all
The icy embrace of the blade upon my flesh
My last communion with this god forsaken world

And again i fall into the darkness
The only truth i’ve ever known
Forever denied to me the blessing of light
I curse the remnants of this life

Bring upon this fallen world the wrath of centuries gone
A plague upon all humankind for none deserve the light of dawn
Here my lament from beyond, my silent song, my spell of hate
The angels have forsaken me; my only heaven is my grave

I curse this god and all its kind, those sheep on their knees for all time
As a wolf i have lived and died and for this i am damned to lie
Endlessly slumbering in the dark, forgotten by both life and death
Is this the price i am to pay for refusing to kneel and obey?