The Millstone

Gather round o people, I'll describe to thee
The millstone round my neck, what it does to me

If as a rat the gilded ship I chance and do not flee
Flawless coal may be eclipsed by fool's gold memory
Blood will tell, ancient seer, pray that I'm proved wrong
If you would know what I fear try and understand this song

Kalevala girl, pine needles round her feet
Sort of girl you'd brave the night in secret tryst to meet
When rain has ceased the earth to drown, smell her in the air
Same scent lies upon her skin, trickling through her hair

I'm her blackened Jesus, her spear in my side
Mail ordered saviour crucified
Shackled to her rock, everyone to see
She won't catch the venom as it falls on me

Naked as my day of birth I stand before her now
Clothed by the blood of this fertile sow
Divided avatar of a deeply flawed God
Cruelly she goads me, rides o'er me roughshod

My body her bread, blood is her wine
My flesh on her crops - a victim divine
When darkness falls, slay me then
You know to be with you I would rise again

I've prayed for a piece of flawless coal
Instead of blazing darkened crystal light
I fear that she'll devour my soul
Flecks in her eyes are of iron pyrite

O God of love so handsome, look thither heed my cry
I can't pay her ransom (these three years I've tried)
I've gone to hel to find her, she won't take my side
She mends the chains that bind her, please take away her pride

You've only made me strong where I didn't know I was weak
And made me vulnerable where I used to be so fucking strong

I'm her blackened Jesus with her spear in my side
Mail ordered saviour whom she's crucified
Shackled to her rock for everyone to see
She won't catch the venom as it falls on me

When rain has ceased the earth to drown I smell her in the air
Th'same scent lies upon her skin and trickles through her hair

If as a rat the gilded ship I chance and do not flee
Flawless coal may be eclipsed by fool's gold memory
Blood will tell, ancient seer, pray that I'm proved wrong
If you would know what I fear try and understand this song

So you know o people the choice is before me
To stay with sadness yet with joy or gain some sanity