Binge

It's 5am, laying wired on the cold hard floor
My mind is racing, I'll be pacing through these halls like a prison cell
My brain is maimed, nothing has changed
I'm stuck in my old ways
As I fight to live through, this darkened daze

Methodical dissection, looking at me in my reflection, is a corpse in remission

Old body, same pain
Once the smoke had cleared it revealed the masquerade
Can't feel my face, I feel sick and deranged

Another night of self loathing
The bitter drip
Down my throat, asphyxiate, watch me fucking choke

Emotionless like a machine
Let my consciousness drain
So I can forget that I am fucking living

Sold serotonin took my soul away from me
Been making myself bleed, no sympathy
I swallowed happy just to find cold misery
An able body enslaved, void of empathy

I let my world dissolve like the substance I've consumed it took me away from you
Carried your demons on my back, am I afraid of what I'll never have

Emotionless like a machine
Let my consciousness drain
So I can forget that I am fucking living

Sold serotonin took my soul away from me
Been making myself bleed, no sympathy
I swallowed happy just to find cold misery
An able body enslaved, void of empathy

We binge and abuse, like it's nothing new
Watch me force it down my throat, split my head in two
Watch me force it down my throat, split my fucking head in two

Branded by my demons, with the image of death
To remind me that there's nothing left
Bathe me in the dirt from my coffin's cracks, to remind me there's no turning back, there's nothing left