Prisoner of Shame

As woke up in a nightmare
I can't stop this noise
And the fear it is leaking
With the poison of joy
Reaping hell with my system
The memory of the high it stays
Will I remember this tomorrow
As my mind fades to grey?

Now you know I spent my life
Always searching for the blame
It isn't easy
I'm a prisoner of shame
I never show my face
And I never state my name
I'm so restrained
I'm a prisoner of shame

Now I guess I got a witness
Cause I wrote all the guilty lines
So the god of clean has shot me
Lost my name and said he must decline
All I need is just a little so I can ease the pain
Ain't no number for my sorrow it will only drive me insane

Now you know I spent my life
Always searching for the blame
It isn't easy
I'm a prisoner of shame
I never show my face
And I never state my name
I'm so restrained
I'm a prisoner of shame
I'm a prisoner, a prisoner of shame

As I woke from the nightmare
I could feel the release in me
And the gods have chosen, to declare
Now they say I've been wasting my life
And those were the words that would cut like a knife.