Ozymandias

I left a window open in case you didn’t mean it
Of course, I didn’t read it
Of course, I wouldn’t be there if I did
You asked if it is over
And I said it’s not that easy
It’s never not that easy
And it’s never not my fault or meant to end this way

A world beyond the safety walls
A waste outside it all where I'm
Alone again
And it’s not that bad
It’s not that bad

I thought I had to prove that I had something of value
To sense that I had value
And until I did, I didn’t dare stand straight
With you and all the voices that said it isn’t worth it
But nothing’s ever worth it and we all just try our best not to remember that

There’s a statue in the desert saying: All things pass
I see the edges of the world beyond the ruins of my self
And I'm blessed
A world beyond the safety walls
A waste outside it all where I'm
Alone at last
And it’s not that bad

Did we grow?
Do we ever?
No one home
Leave a letter
All alone
Getting better
All alone
Getting better

I miss the ways we hurt ourselves
I miss not fearing anything
I lost control of where the pain appears
But it’s not that bad
It’s not that bad