​two lives

I've been digging deep holes in my memory
Dragging bodies through the mud of my history
I buried faith in the ditch where the maggots feed
I tied it's hands when it begged me to set it free
I held you so close that the bones in my hands would break
And I would lay awake and thank you for the way that they ache
When I went digging up holes in my memory
I left a couple empty just for you and me
I think I used to know the difference from between and before
But now I look into the mirror and I don't think that I'm sure

I want a place where we can both die
Cause I've been gambling with two lives
And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me
Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave

While you were changing colors pushing on the walls and the seams
I was asleep and wishing I was anybody but me
I dream in velvet and I'm smothered by the form as it bends
Saturated in my room now I don't have to pretend

I want a place where we can both die
Cause I've been gambling with two lives
And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me
Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave

If I
Set all my doubt aside
Drag it all into
The light
Am I just scared what I'll find?
But I see you
My own shade of the blues
And I'm more scared to lose
What I've found in you

I want a place where we can both die
Cause I've been gambling with two lives