Bliss From A Dead Embrace

Just another day with two empty hands
Drag me through gravel
Take me far from here
Too tired to use my wins
Just do not forget me
Breathe your arson breath
Kiss my cyanide lips
Bliss from a dead embrace
This is how we put an end to each other
Beg for yours
Beg for mine
Bleed again and I give in
Open your mouth
Open my arms
Apologetic death
I'm sorry that it had to come to this
I have grown so sick of this plague of insecurities
I can't trust myself to help myself
And these razors beg for skin
I dance in cold seasons
Numbs hands from distant touch
It's not supposed to hurt this much and I don't know why
This had to be such a game of bleeding thoughts
It's too fucking hard to think about
Memories built from glass
I see you in my dreams more often
Eyes piercing mine
Dead weight, dead stare
Dead to the point that I cannot care
That you, that I
Watch each other bleed and love to cry
Fell in, fell out
Begged on broken knees and a swollen mouth
Held hands, held up
Took everything I have to give and then you gave up
It's probably not as bad as it seems
I am just stuck in my own worst dreams
The ones where you rip my heart from my chest
Come back for a kiss and burn what's left
What a goddamn nightmare
I'm still awake
In my own hell
This is not where I die for you
This is where i stop crying over you
I can't walk away
I'm bound here by hope
Tied here by memories
They hold me steadfast
Drown me in oceans of your failing hands
Subtle and delicate we live this dance
Motions of porcelain
Whispers to the stars
What has brought me this far
It was not supposed to be this hard to breathe