Desperate

In the 16-th day of fierce october
Dead leaves whirl into the cold room
All this is ended.
My war is over and my life seems filled with gloom
I said goodbye to all my hopes
What's left behind
I shall not find the rain of yester tears still falls
And death'll bring freedom to my mind

My headaches grow
How many days i cried
Which way to go
How many times i died
So many days i searched,
So many ways i am doubtful
What i oughta do
Does no god hear when i pray?
And my worst dreams come true

(repeat 2nd verse)

Insufferable excruciating pain
Irremediable despair paralysed my brain
In the beginning of the end
I want to stay here
With my hurt lonesome road makes many bends
And i cannot ease my lot desolate
To live is to suffer desperate
To suffer is to live

My headaches grow
How many days i cried
Which way to go
How many times i died