Speck

You want me to explain
How I've been struggling
And how my self esteem
Has fallen out of bed

Inside I feel a mess
My thoughts betray me
I keep thinking time has passed
When the hour has stayed the same

I am fucking low
And it hurts far too much to be dead
And you're so beautiful
And I'm nothing more than a speck

I'm starting to feel small
'Cause you're much bigger than me
I watched how you grew tall
While sitting in your chair

My heart keeps acting up
It's pretty scary
Am I really what you want
I wish I didn't care

Please don't get me wrong
But somehow it's beginning to hurt
I just don't think it's fair
How you silently speak through my words, my words

I think I've said too much
I feel so emotional
I'm so stupid it must make you sick
To even believe in me
Are you even there

Have you been feeling low?
Are you weaker than you will admit?
I think you're beautiful
But one day my face you'll forget
'Cause I'm nothing more than a speck

I'm seeing you for the first time
For the first time
You're seeing me for the last time
For the last time