My Shadow Plan

I'm made of clay, that's how I feel.
The war inside
Seems too long to have an end.
The worries fill my days!

One silent joke, that's what I am.
Along the way,
Somehow I lost the key of life.
I have shame of my face!

The strange things (I'm used to do)
Reflect my insobriety
I am too weak (That's who I am)
To save me from myself
Where is my smile? (Where is my heart?)
Mortally hurt inside

I need inspiration
For fears and tears.
Blackness is done, Oblivion has come,
I had to start my shadow plan!
I've been desperation
For years and years.
My tainted soul has floated alone
I had to start my shadow plan!

My situation, out of control.
A fallen knight!
Hard to admit, I ran out of love.
My madness I embrace!

I am contempt, a single tear.
My nakedness
Shows too much for those who watch.
I'll never find my place!

The strange things (I'm used to do)
Reflect my insobriety
I am too weak (That's who I am)
To save me from myself
Where is my smile? (Where is my heart?)
Mortally hurt inside

I need inspiration
For fears and tears.
Blackness is done, Oblivion has come,
I had to start my shadow plan!
I've been desperation
For years and years.
My tainted soul has floated alone
I had to start my shadow plan!

Father, why have you forsaken me?
I have reached my breaking point
I'm what nobody wanted at all
Where can I go? What can I do?
My black plan is all that's left.
Alone in the darkness of the world!
Forever alone