Your Trust Betrayed

An inspiring happening:
You're dead and your soul rises
On your trip to the other side
You await your reward
For a lifetime full of faith
Of unflinching belief

You never doubted in god or in the love of christ
Spent an ideal life in piety to attain paradise
Infinite trust in all these promises
And so you wonder that there's noone who receives you now
Noone who gives wings and harp and leads you to your cloud
Your trust begins to fade deep in your heart

No - this can't be true
You refuse to believe
This can't be afterlife
This can't be paradise

A gruesome lie begins to unmask before your eyes
Garden Eden is a desert, nothing of a paradise
You're standing midst the final nothingness
You wasted a whole lifetime for an illusion
And your dead mind can only draw this last conclusion:
Your god is dead if he ever was alive

Standing left on heaven's shore
Your trust betrayed