Broken Hymn

I left my jacket in the hallway
With the weight I couldn't name
Your shadow moved across the ceiling
Like it still remembered rain

There's a light above the kitchen
That keeps flickering in code
Like a satellite collapsing
Over some forgotten road

I keep talking to the silence
Like it owes me something back
But it only learns my voice
Then disappears into the cracks

I found your letters in the drawer
Beneath the batteries and thread
All the words were still alive
But all the meanings had gone dead

There's a humming in the carpet
Where your footsteps used to stay
Like the house became a mouth
But forgot what it should say

I keep wearing my old sadness
Like a sweater out of season
Warm enough to keep me breathing
Thin enough to feel the leaving

We were careful with the matches
But careless with the flame
You called it getting older
I called it losing shape
Now every room between us
Has forgotten how to change

Are we just static between stations
Two ghosts inside the signal
Trying to sound like something sacred
Through a broken little hymn

I loved you in a language
That my body couldn't finish
You held me like a secret
I was already learning to forgive

And I don't know where the hurt goes
When nobody let's it speak
But it sleeps beneath the floorboards
And it whispers when we dream

I still pass the laundromat
Where we watched our clothes turn blue
Spinning circles like a planet
That was trying to outlive you

Every window in this city
Keeps reflecting someone else
And I hate how much I miss you
When I barely miss myself

I still keep your name unspoken
Like a bruise beneath my tongue
Some things don't become a memory
They just stay forever young

There's a bookmark in the novel
Where the ending never came
I was waiting for a rescue
You were waiting for a blame

We were gentle with the silence
But violent with the truth
You called it self-protection
I called it losing you
Now all the stars above us
Look like holes the light fell through

Are we just static between stations
Two ghosts inside the signal
Trying to sound like something sacred
Through a broken little hymn

I loved you in a language
That my body couldn't finish
You held me like a secret
I was already learning to forgive

And I don't know where the hurt goes
When nobody let's it speak
But it sleeps beneath the floorboards
And it whispers when we dream

I don't want another ending
Dressed in ordinary light
I don't want to call it healing
Just because I sleep at night

I don't want to be the reason
You stop looking at the sky
But I can't keep being the weather
For a heart that won't stay dry

Maybe we were never broken
Maybe we were overdrawn
Two small debts of tenderness
That kept collecting after dawn

Maybe every almost
Has a cemetery too
Full of versions of ourselves
That never learned what not to do

Are we just static between stations
Two ghosts inside the signal
Trying to sound like something sacred
Through a broken little hymn

I loved you in a language
That my body couldn't finish
You held me like a secret
I was already learning to forgive

And I don't know where the hurt goes
When nobody let's it speak
But it sleeps beneath the floorboards
And it whispers when we dream

I left my jacket in the hallway
I left my heart beside the door
Maybe leaving is a country
We have both been living for

If you hear me through the static
Don't answer anymore
Just remember we were human
Before we became the storm