Devil's Playground

I did it again
But I swear to God that I changed and I’m not the same now
So I pop a couple pills and I swear to God
That I’m on the devils playground
Got me lookin’ for a way out
But I don’t wanna blow my stupid fuckin brains out

Ya know ya got me feelin’ that way I
Don’t think I’m feelin alright
Don’t think I’m feelin’ alright
If ya goin’ keep it goin’ all night

Keep it goin’ keep it goin’ all hype
What is drama without trauma no lie
I dont really have the time
I just wanted peace of mind

Something I can never find
Since you’re always on my back
Since you never take my side
Why should I split up mine
Why should I share my shine

Why should I even ask
When my mind is made, heart made of ice
I been tryna touch new heights
We been in fights
I’ve been the one with the wound
That was bleeding and one with the knife

I been the one who was right
And wrong and all in the same night
I been the center, yes I been the type
I’ve been the dragon and I’ve been the knight
I been the one with no blanket

Who still woke up sweatin’ my hands shiver clutchin’ at life
I been the one who was caught up
Inside a reflection rejecting to look in my eyes
I been the one that’s right under your nose
And still up in your face and yet I been out of sight

I did it again
But I swear to God that I changed and I’m not the same now
So I pop a couple pills and I swear to God
That I’m on the devils playground
Got me lookin for a way out
But I don’t wanna blow my stupid fuckin brains out

Ya know ya got me feelin’ that way I
Don’t think I’m feelin alright
Don’t think I’m feelin’ alright
If ya goin’ keep it goin’ all night

‘Til your lips, ‘til your lips run dry
Keep spilling, spilling that lie
Ashamed and terrified
I turned on all the lights
And when we fall apart
We can go back to the start
Pick up all the pieces and preserve them in a jar

You say I don’t know who I am
But there’s some comfort in feeling
The same terrible things
So stay holding my hand
‘Cuz there’s some comfort in feeling
The same terrible things

Throw me into all of my darkest and deepest ends
Tell me that I can get out and get use to it
Throw you in too, light a match make a fire pit
Run you down deep and down over our memories
Salvage the rest or the best or what’s left of me
Cry say your sorry, I’ll bet you’re use to it
It’s like we’re immune to it

I did it again
But I swear to God that I changed and I’m not the same now
So I pop a couple pills and I swear to God
That I’m on the devils playground
Got me lookin for a way out
But I don’t wanna blow my stupid fuckin brains out

Ya know ya got me feelin’ that way I
Don’t think I’m feelin alright
Don’t think I’m feelin’ alright
Keep it goin’ all night