Pointless

So fucking tired
So fucking empty and despite all this I still can't sleep
Sick of this constant ache that keeps me awake
Sick of this constant daze and my vacant gaze
My visions turning grey from how I self medicate
So I'll sit awake for days and watch all the colours fade

I am so alone

And it's pointless
Dying late at night
Disappointment
I'm not worth any of your time

I'm not worth any of your time

I'm tired of this loneliness
It's something that a bottle cannot fix
But I need to be numb so I'll sink and I'll drink

Sat in the dark, can't breathe
And all I can see are these phosphenes
Please help me
All this love I feel that I am owed
I will never receive
I will never be enough
Because you and I are few and far between

I am so alone

And it's pointless
Dying late at night
Disappointment
I'm not worth any of your time
Trapped inside a mind that makes me feel alone
I can't hear a thing but my constant drone

It's pointless
Crying late at night
Disappointment
I'm not worth any of your time