Fly By Waves

I used to date with a nun, at high school
But this was not good, maybe because today
You would be more lost than me
And inside you would bleed
As I see every day
When I wake up alive, it's cool, let it be, let's see ok

I never had any problems with the law
But fucking her in church would be a fault
Moaning for Christ, you are my most spicy part
Moaning in front of Christ, my sweet bitch
Pouring wine, spitting into each other's mouth
Lick your salt until you dry
For enter in your legs

And just to fuck it all over again
It's usual, not because I want to
I just talk shit, against everything I want
I am my worst enemy
Its all that I do

Who loves me tries to help me, with pressure
The world does better than you, I'm sorry
I hope the disease kills me
Or I'll have to face the razors
But I'm afraid of my blood pressure
But maybe some pills will decrease the proportion

I speak more than the mouth and I think more than I speak
Not even my door was closed for me to sleep
Are you trying to bring me down? So get in line
Had a lot of people slept for years to be there first now, on this line
Not even my door shut up, for me to sleep now

Now I can't play with my daughter
I'm too dark to be a presence for her
I have to pretend I'm a father to her
That my father was never for me
I don't want her in black or pink
Just fuck it, whatever
I want her happy, I want her smiling
I want her to remember me
As someone present and friendly
Who can trust and chat with me

Above my eyes and painted nails
Or bales of tattoos with demons and screams
Because I'm demon

Now I'm being tasked with helping people
But I can barely help myself
I barely reached the middle and already failed
Each pill looks like a hope to smile again
The clown here has lost the veils of grace
And it looks like they're already charging me a smile
Just a little bit, so pretend in the meantime
To do in the meantime
Trying to live in the meantime

Black is too dark
The colors are very colorful
Necklaces, neck chains bother
But only when I put it on myself
Because when it is forced on me, it looks like such a beautiful accessory

Without drinking, without getting high, without hitting
Without taking anything, to kill me
I'm a bad person, like I'm destroying
My body hurts me every day and I keep silent
My mind is full of hearing your problems
But it is my role to graduate, alone at home in psychology
Thats not my piece

I'm good at choruses
Because I repeat my mistakes in the choruses
I got lost in the choruses
I got lost, my best friends
And I don't know who they were
I don't know if I have them
I don't know if one day I had
I don't know if one day I gonna have
Best friends

Im by myself, and im lonely in the darkness
But fuck it, just a piece
Im full of me
Because im living a dreaming
To keep inside me
To rest in peace
Just want rest in peace
Just leave me alone
So let me here
Here