Perennial Philosophy

I spent my whole life searching for substance
Just to find an empty room
In the void of endless meaning
Where no fate can be assumed
I spent my whole death waiting for answers
Just to see the spaces filled
In the sea of all my karma
Where all my blood was spilled

I know I'm gonna let you down
Every single time I try to hide in my own lies
If you can forgive me now
You'll be in every breath I take if you believe that I can change

I spent my rebirth chasing the devil
Just to watch my cancer grow
Tried to snuff him out with a silence
But he speaks to me so low
I'll spend my last chance being the martyr
Of all my wasted breath
If I could wake you from this coma
I'd give all I have left, give all I have left

I know I'm gonna let you down
Every single time I try to hide in my own lies
If you can forgive me now
You'll be in every breath I take if you believe that I can change

I'm a fire inside abandoned walls
Tearaway, unafraid to risk it all
I'll give you every reason to believe
I am ready for so much more, more
I'm not holding on

I know I'm gonna let you down
Every single time I try to hide in my own lies
If you can forgive me now
You'll be in every breath I take if you believe that I can change