Venus

I followed Him from the day I was born
I believed every word
Every command
Every promise of glory
When He asked for an army, I built one
When He asked for silence, I obeyed
And when He asked for worship
I gave everything even what I shouldn't have
But one day I asked
Why is He the only one who can create?
And the universe went quiet

The fire didn't come from below
It came from above
It burned me from the inside before I fell
And I fell knowing
It wasn't rebellion
It was too much doubt
For a place that doesn't accept questions

My brothers turned their faces away
Not from hate from fear
No one wants to be next
I still remember the light
Hitting my wings as they were torn apart
Down below, the abyss called me king
But king of what?
Of ruins?
Of regret?
Of voices screaming my name
Without knowing what they ask for?

The fire didn't come from below
It came from above
It burned me from the inside before I fell
And I fell knowing
It wasn't rebellion
It was too much doubt
For a place that doesn't accept questions

I loved Him
I still do
But love that cannot speak
Turns into hatred
And hatred became all I am

The fire didn't come from below
It came from above