funnything

There's a lump in my throat the size of my secrets
There's a bump in the road the same shape as me
There's a place I could go, if only I could see it
There are things I would know, if I wasn't me

Such a funnything, gather everything from the small exchanges
And it's troubling how I overthink just to understate it
I'm still wondering if I'll always be me in all these places
That's the funny thing, I feel everything and I never say it

How I'm not okay, and I overstep right to center stage, then
I self medicate till there's nothing left, till the worries fade and
Watch it shatter me, and it scatters me in a million places
That's the funnything, that's the irony
That it never changes

Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah

Lost my mind, long ago
Maybe you've seen it
Lost the signs that I know
Nobody else needs

Can I call it out, can I shout it loud
Can I turn the pages
If I'm the one with the pen in hand
How come I hate it
How come I can't erase it

Such a funnything, gather everything from the small exchanges
And it's troubling how I overthink just to understate it
I'm still wondering if I'll always be me in all these places
That's the funny thing, I feel everything and I never say it

How I'm not okay, and I overstep right to center stage, then
I self medicate till there's nothing left, till the worries fade and
Watch it shatter me, and it scatters me in a million places
That's the funnything, that's the irony

That it never changes
And it shatters me
And it scatters me
In a million places

What if I believe
Everything I think
And I can't escape it
Will it follow me
Will it swallow me

If I never shake it
It's an energy
Just in front of me
What I never say, and

Such a funnything, gather everything from the small exchanges
And it's troubling how I overthink just to understate it
I'm still wondering if I'll always be me in all these places
That's the funny thing, I feel everything and I never say it

Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah