Spent So Long

Woke up today with my head busted open
With filler places I left rusted shut
My lips hug every tired bruise and broken
From the weight of all I thought that I'd forgot
I spent so long just learning how to get it along
Pointing fingers at the sky my fuck ups are my own

And so tonight I'm destined to loathe all the things I've been
And that's alright 'cause you can't win against the world
So why pretend
Right?

Went out last night and drunk my bread and liquor
I learned to treat my body like my mind
I wish that I could tell her how I miss her
And how her absence haunts me every single night
It feels so wrong we live at home to all these songs
Have I learned from all my mistakes?
Am I fucking up again?

And so tonight I'm destined to loathe all the things I've been
And that's alright 'cause you can't win against the world
So why pretend?

You can't get those lessons and you just might learn one
You just might have future if you could forget about your past