If I Never Thought About It

The clock will not stop
Making noise
It reminds me of all the time
I've lost
My mind will not just
Settle down
It reminds me of what my
Conscience has brought
I did my shopping alone this
Year
It reveals my loneliness
My mouth keeps shouting out
It reveals my bitterness

If I never thought about it
I would not be here today

Can't stand rejection
It makes me feel inferior
I always strain for lesson
For fear that life means nothing

Tied up, in thoughts
Of what to do
With the body when
The engine rots