Ghosting

Tracing my anxiety
But I can't make out the path I drew
Embracing my sobriety
But it doesn't have a thing to do
With how I live 'cause I won't die
By cigarettes or lightning
Unless it strikes inside my mind
And my body idles glowing

Braiding silk on my spine
Back burned in flickering light
I left my outline up in sweetwater more occupied
From a hollow tree
I've been spirit hosting

I say there's nothing wrong
That I'm just not where I belong
Lessening the gravity
Prolongs the time my thoughts distort into
A weight that crushes as I fly
Like cinder blocks on kite strings
To everyone I left behind
I'm so scared to die I am not living

Braiding silk on my spine
Arms burned in flickering light
I found my shadow down on pine island
Less occupied from a hollow tree
I've been spirit hosting
I found a plot of land
I made it permanent
Sapphire map of energy faded like a gradient
From a sprouting seed
You can find me ghosting

Can't enjoy the things I used to
Every night I'm stuck in my room
Every night I'm sick in my room
But I'm always thinking of you
Every night I'm stuck in my room
Every night I'm sick in my room
Would you understand if you knew
That I'm always stuck in my room
Every night I'm sick in my room
But I have a screen to look through
Every night I'm stuck in my room
Every night I'm sick in my room

Wanna feel the air of summer nights
In parking lots with ice cream
Am I running out of time
To have a life fated for growing

Braiding silk on my spine
Face burned in flickering light
I saw my silhouette in winter park unoccupied
From a hollow tree
I've been spirit hosting
I found a plot of land
Unearthed some rocks and gems
Blood ruby sheen opacity faded like a gradient
From a sprouting seed
You can find me ghosting

I could build a new world for you
But we'd still be stuck in my room
Every night I'm burned by the Moon