I try to walk away From the face that's staring back at me But it won't fade away Like a shadow glued to everything I see I'm running but I can't escape This storm that I created on my own The pressure makes me break And I can't tell what's mine from what I've outgrown I feel my heartbeat race Something's close to tearing loose I'm trying to find some space But all my thoughts refuse I don't wanna be The creature that's been crawling out of me It's getting hard to hide When it's fighting for the place I used to lead If I don't resist It'll take what's left of all I've ever known And I'll drown in this Chaos screaming louder than my own tone The steps I thought were right Led me to a place I swore I'd never go I'm struggling with the fight 'Cause there's a part of me that won't let go The darkness pulls me in Calling me to fall again tonight But if I chase that thin Ray of hope, I might reclaim the light I feel my heartbeat race Something's close to tearing loose I'm trying to find some space But all my thoughts refuse I don't wanna be The creature that's been crawling out of me It's getting hard to hide When it's fighting for the place I used to lead If I don't resist It'll take what's left of all I've ever known And I'll drown in this Chaos screaming louder than my own tone If I fall again tonight Is there still a way to start anew? Or everything I tried to be Got erased by the darkest part of truth? I don't wanna be The creature that's been crawling out of me But I'll learn to stand Face the shadows that keep chasing endlessly If I hold my ground Maybe I can find the strength to rise again And finally drown The beast that tries to speak instead of me