You only touch me
When you feel yourself fading
Like I'm some medicine
You take when your hands start shaking
Your voice through the hallway
Still cuts through the walls
And God, I hate that after everything
I still wait for your call
So tell me why
Every slammed door sounds like goodbye
But every time you pull me close
I let another part of me die
And I break for you
I scream your name like it still means something
Blood rush, glass lungs
Hands around my throat while I keep running
You burn through me
Like rage dressed up in perfect teeth
And I hate that even now
You're the only place I wanna bleed
You wear your damage
Like a crown above your head
While I clean up every word
You never meant when you said it
You look at me like
I'm the reason you decay
But you keep crawling back to my bed
Just to push me away
How did we turn
Into two ghosts in the same room
Swearing we're not ruined
While we light another fuse
And I break for you
I scream your name like it still means something
Blood rush, glass lungs
Hands around my throat while I keep running
You burn through me
Like rage dressed up in perfect teeth
And I hate that even now
You're the only place I wanna bleed
Was I just another body
To keep your nightmares quiet?
Did you ever love me
Or just love how hard I tried?
And I break for you
Louder now, like I'm splitting at the seams
Torn apart
With your shadow underneath my skin
You ruin me
And somehow you're still all I need
So if this love was meant to kill me
Why does dying feel like relief?
Relief
Relief
I still fall into you