Silence This War

I wake up inside the silence
Where my thoughts are louder than screams
Every breath feels borrowed
Like I'm drowning in what I can't be

I bend, but I never break clean
I pray, but my hands still shake
If I fall to my knees tonight
Will you hear me hesitate?

Save me from the weight of my name
From the voice that keeps calling me weak
I'm standing in flames, still breathing
But I don't feel alive, I just bleed
If hope is a lie I keep chasing
Then let it tear through my chest
I don't need heaven to find me
Just silence this war in my head

Every mirror shows a stranger
With my eyes and someone else's blame
I built my faith out of failure
Now it whispers I'm the one to blame

I scream, but the sound stays locked in
I reach, but the light pulls away
If this is the price of surviving
I'm tired of learning to stay

Save me from the weight of my name
From the voice that keeps calling me weak
I'm standing in flames, still breathing
But I don't feel alive, I just bleed
If hope is a lie I keep chasing
Then let it tear through my chest
I don't need heaven to find me
Just silence this war in my head

If I let go now
Would I finally feel something real?
Or am I cursed to carry
Everything I'll never heal?

Save me, I'm breaking in slow motion
Every prayer tastes like regret
I survived, but survival's empty
When you're fighting yourself in the end
If this pain is my only truth
Then let it burn till there's nothing left
I don't need to be forgiven
Just let me forget who I am