Clairvoyant

Things are just weird right now
They're just weird
In the world, in my life

I have to believe that it's all for something

You ate up my time
Infiltrated my past
Cleaned out all the money I ever had
Where's the line between loving you and hurting myself
Cause I just can't seem to picture doing anything else

Did I somehow get cursed when the clairvoyant came to me
Told me I'd be a star when I was 17
Tried to make out like I didn't take it seriously
But held it inside like somehow it was meant to be
Would I have been happier if I'd just let it go?
Fade with the memories in that home video
Why is it that this is all that I've ever known?
So hard to define but still with me when I'm alone

I know
I know
I know
I can only save myself
I'm not a wheel re-inventor
Maybe that's okay
Am I okay?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?

I used to think, like
If you worked really hard at something for like a decade
There's very few people if they stuck at it that wouldn't get anyway
Now I'm like 'is that really true though? '