something to live for

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Hey, uh, I know I'm probably the last person you want to be hearing from right now
But, uh, I realized a lot of things about myself

And, uh, I just, y'know, thought I would tell you about them
Sometimes in life, it feels like everything's wrong
Hands shaky, vision blurred, I don't feel like I belong
But then I watch a sunset

The fiery orange ignites something within me
And I realize color in the world is what you make
So maybe I'll watch every single sunset
I mean, I'd watch sunrises too, but usually I sleep in way too late

And sometimes, my ears ring too loud
I snap at anyone who dares even look my way
But then I hear a young child laugh
Pure, unbridled joy that hasn't been tainted
It reminds me that broken hearts can be repainted
It's a simple joy
Just like the smell of autumn and new beginning

The way people yell their hearts out in the car when they're singing
The ability to sit, feel my heartbeat, and breathe
How sometimes, not always, but sometimes, my soul feels in line with everything
The anticipation of waiting for someone to open a gift
The first hug after seeing someone you've missed

Loving hands caressing your face
Holding someone and bringing them so close until there is no space
The anxious anticipation the night before a big adventure
Friends who will go places, no questions asked, where and whenever

Hearts that have been repaired and scars that are healing
When your chest lightens back up, and you're finally feeling
And you're finally breathing
It all makes it worth it a thousand times again
Because even though I hold all this pain and anxiety within

I know that as long as the Sun rises and sets from the sky to the floor
As long as those stars in the sky are alive, I have something to live for
I guess, uh, what I'm trying to tell you is just there so many small, beautiful things on this planet

You just got to look for them
You just got to seek out a little bit of joy, a little bit of a reason to live every single day
And you gotta keep going
So, uh, I hope you're doing well
Yeah, whenever you hear this, maybe call me back or something