Astral Mariner

Movement
I'm asleep in a fog
That nothing can cut through
The constant of time standing ever still
Waters pristine, oar rippling stars
An endless expanse
Empyreal mirror
What is this light
Piercing heaven's sky
I cannot see
I cannot see

If only I knew
What this weatherworn face would see
I'd have set sail for another shore
These seas tumultuous and merciless
Those sent to guide me only drove me deeper into storms
Beset into defeat, gripped by paralysis
Pumelled by relentless rains of doubt and despair
Despite the weight of it all
I'm not sure if I felt it at all

And as I sank like a stone
I feared too much to ask of you
To reach down and pull me in
Or to turn away and let me go

Leave me here
I'm the only one I trust
Not to deepen these wounds
Cast me adrift
I'm safer alone
I can guide myself home
Wherever that may be

Why am I so numb
To the terrors I've seen
To the pains I've felt
To the fear I've known?
Countless in number they are
They say they are my strength
But each scar is a weight
Pulling me further
Each make me sink

Forlorn visions of bygone times are lost in the swell
Reality's rawness is lost to the daze
Bring me sleep

You are lost, but I have found my own place
In this maladjusted world we call our home
I hid in the stars
I conjured a world
I made my escape
You cannot hurt me here
I longed for the same as you
But I'm at peace now
Whatever story they tell of me
Through the lens of misjudgment
Means nothing to me here
With doors open wide
Come find me