Phobia

I go around
I'm being followed
My chances fade for every gulp of air I swallow
To be free to be me
Is not a part of your agenda so I guess it's not to be

You roam around seeking victims to strangle
You're searching subjects to devour and to mangle
Leaving no light left to confuse
Directing pieces to fit to ensure you're not to loose

You owe no one
To be your only one
Yet every time your clammy hands seek out to feel that much
You might as well have put a ring on every finger that you touch

You'll be my master
I'll be your slave
I'll seek disaster en help you dig my grave
You make me weak beyond repair
You leave me out in the dark to wither and despair

You owe no one
To be your only one
With you to guide me I'm never lost
I'm being caught in this web of mutual distrust
Of mutual distrust

I see with my eyes shut inevitable
I see with my eyes shut
In every place I've been and every place I've seen
My own private hell is there with me

Like a stranger waiting to be known
Like a creep following me home
You voice my mind my neglected inner needs
Your voice is high makes me follow your lead
Forever caught in fear and in lust
Our bond is based on mutual distrust