Abandoned Love

I can see the turning of the key
I've been deceived by the clown inside of me
I thought that he was right but he's afraid
But something's telling me, I wear the ball and chain
My patron saint is a-fighting with a ghost
He's always off somewhere when I need him most
The Spanish moon is rising on the hill
But my heart is telling me I love you still

Everybody's wearing a disguise
To hide what they've got left behind their eyes
But me, I can't cover what I am
Wherever the children go I'll follow them
I march in the parade of liberty
But as long as I love you I'm not free
How long must I suffer such abuse
Won't you let me see your smile before I turn you loose

I've given up the game, I've got to leave
The pot of gold is only make-believe
The treasure can't be found by men who search
Whose gods are dead and whose queens are in the church

We sat in an empty theatre and we kissed
I asked you please to cross me off your list
My head tells me it's time to make a change
But my heart is telling me I love you but you're strange

So one more time at midnight, near the wall
Take off your heavy make-up and your shawl
Won't you come down from the throne of where you sit
Let me feel your love one more time before I abandon it

I come back to the town from the flaming moon
I see you in the street I begin to swoon
I love to see you dress before the mirror
Won't you let me in your room one time, before I finally disappear