Cursed

I've always lived madly
Once my mother said devil was in me
Grew up and became the black sheep
I brought too much pain

I killed, I raped, I spit at the Holy Cross
I stole and spent the money with hores
A priest said to me I was cursed and I laugh at him
I couldn't see the path I was taking

Don't know now what it's reality or dream
I feel so lonely
Feel so much agony
I feel hell is calling me

I'm crawling
I'm facing it
My life turned into a purgatory
It's over
Realize it
I'm not ready to pay for my sins

I enter a world drowned in pain
Bodies fall all around me
Distorted faces cry for their sins
They write them on the walls with their blood and pray on their knees

Can't see where am I
I'm swimming in a pool of blood
I Don't know how I came into here
And I don't know why, I know that I must exit now.

But no one can hear me
I'm screaming for help
Screaming for life
Screaming out for a light

But what are my sins?
I'm here to pay
Are them so severe that i'll suffer eternally?

Constantly tortured
Sins are transformed into torment
Creation of mind, insanity?
Am I dead or alive?

When the dream is gone
and I come back into reality
I don't know what to believe
does it all really exists, or is it all insanity?

I'm crawling
I'm facing it
Inside my soul I feel agony
It's over
Realize it
I regret of my sins

I'm crawling
I'm facing it
My life turned into a purgatory
It's over
Realize it
I'm not ready to pay for my sins