Lobotomize Me

Constricted
I try to fight it but the walls, they keep on closing in
Afflicted
Cursed with a mind that's bound to face a fatal slip
There's nowhere safe, I've lost my way and now I'm too far gone
I can't escape the memories of where it all went wrong
Can't stand to live another day inside the skin that I'm in
Destined for discomfort
How do I cut this out
Thoughts racing in an unrelenting spiral
Don't know what happens when my mind goes black
Cognitive dissonance, I can't discern what I know
Forever longing to dissolve my past
I need rewired cause my mind is short-circuiting
I'm tangled up inside existential suffering
If I could, I'd carve it out with a lobotomy
The four-letter disorder that's buried underneath

Just drive a knife through my skull
So then I would let go
Lights on but nobody's home
It sounds so wonderful

Violence
Takes a hold inside of my mind
Here we go again
Counting down the steps until I'm over the edge
Only seconds left
Give me eternal rest
Uh!
Give me eternal rest

I need out of this hell inside my head
Oh!

Let me out

Flashbacks start again
How can I forget
Fucked inside the head
I am longing for this to end

Just drive a knife through my skull
So then I would let go
Lights on but nobody's home
It sounds so wonderful

The fear persists
And I relive the torment
Gouge out my eyes
So I don't see it again
Lobotomize me
Lobotomize me

Panic starts again

Fuck!

My body writhes in the tremors
I wish that I couldn't remember
Gouge out my eyes
Carve out the light
Maybe then I would find my peace of mind