Constricted I try to fight it but the walls, they keep on closing in Afflicted Cursed with a mind that's bound to face a fatal slip There's nowhere safe, I've lost my way and now I'm too far gone I can't escape the memories of where it all went wrong Can't stand to live another day inside the skin that I'm in Destined for discomfort How do I cut this out Thoughts racing in an unrelenting spiral Don't know what happens when my mind goes black Cognitive dissonance, I can't discern what I know Forever longing to dissolve my past I need rewired cause my mind is short-circuiting I'm tangled up inside existential suffering If I could, I'd carve it out with a lobotomy The four-letter disorder that's buried underneath Just drive a knife through my skull So then I would let go Lights on but nobody's home It sounds so wonderful Violence Takes a hold inside of my mind Here we go again Counting down the steps until I'm over the edge Only seconds left Give me eternal rest Uh! Give me eternal rest I need out of this hell inside my head Oh! Let me out Flashbacks start again How can I forget Fucked inside the head I am longing for this to end Just drive a knife through my skull So then I would let go Lights on but nobody's home It sounds so wonderful The fear persists And I relive the torment Gouge out my eyes So I don't see it again Lobotomize me Lobotomize me Panic starts again Fuck! My body writhes in the tremors I wish that I couldn't remember Gouge out my eyes Carve out the light Maybe then I would find my peace of mind