Toxic Thoughts

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[Verse 1]
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I start this off staring at a blank page
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An open office document

A blinking cursor
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Passing days
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Without a single word
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Some say it's absurd
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Like I float along a stream of words unsaid
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Choosing not to cast my net
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But I spend so long questioning myself
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If this isn't right
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Then does that mean I failed?
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Will my melodies ever live up
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Will my metaphors be profound enough
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Will I ever outdo myself
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The ceiling gets higher and higher
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It's harder and harder to shatter
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And when I fall
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I fall worse than I ever did before
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Evaluating the damage no I just don't understand it
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Conflicted by the very air I breathe
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A love with hatred laced between

[Prechorus]
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You can see it in my eyes
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A child's spark light up the night
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Constant search for approval
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Suffocated by refusal
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Devouring my skull
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But never feeling full

[Chorus]
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Oh dear I don't wanna be a burden
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But could you please be a little more concerned with
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The overactive mind of a believer
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The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
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Oh dear if only you could feel it
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The crippling fear of being deserted
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You can't touch the heat of this fever
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The toxic thoughts of an overachiever

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[Verse 2]

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I start this off a little confused
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Writers block doesn't exist
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It's not a word I'm supposed to use
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Because it's all in my mind
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A parasite I'm supposed to find
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But sometimes
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Well most times
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It's so hard to define
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So I pour a couple drinks
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Getting drunk on gasoline
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Fire pulses in my veins
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I'm sick of waiting for the day
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That courage overtakes my brain
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For someone to say it's ok
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I've lived my whole life afraid
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It's time for me to be brave
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To embrace a forest
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That's so dark and unknown
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Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
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They pave as they go
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Disappointed gazes leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
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I'm not taking the bait
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Let them rot in their place

[Prechorus]
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I deserve to be alright
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I deserve to sleep at night
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I'm my closest friend

I remind myself again
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Better treat her well
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Cuz she's with me till the end

[Chorus]
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Oh dear I don't wanna be a burden
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But could you please be a little more concerned with
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The overactive mind of a believer
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The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
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Oh dear if only you could feel it
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The crippling fear of being deserted
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You can't touch the heat of this fever
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The toxic thoughts of an overachiever

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[Verse 3]
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Sometimes I forget the feeling
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Of every single nerve tingling
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Better than any lovers’ touch
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I've created tears of pain and burns of lust
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I've created a forest a safe place for myself  that others have found
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Some attempt to destroy and others feed the ground
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Fertilize my mind with melodies and rhymes
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A sorcerer of time take you back to the night
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When you pondered your death when somebody left when you lie away broken cause your head is 
unkept and let me

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remind you
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That everything is temporary
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You and I are temporary
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And this feeling that's so scary
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Someday you'll realize that thoughts so heavy
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Don't mean you're unsteady
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But that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet you to somebody you never knew
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You