Fading Memories

Cook it up just to numb the pain
Pull the belt in a search to find my last vein
Like a felon in for life I’m wasting away
It’s the only thing in life that keeps my mind sane

But was it worth the consequences?
It numbs the hurt, it numbs the pain
Cause in the end I lost a friend who died in vain
I could never get enough to heal the pain
It all went wrong, he was left defenseless
He should not have died, it should be me

But now I see that if I believed in something
We’d be alive, but now we’re nothing

But it made me feel
It set me free
It cloaked the pain that tortured me
It made me blind I couldn’t see
The only one to blame was me
It was my selfish lies that caused the end of his life
And now he’s gone and so are we
We’re all just fading memories
Destined to fail

Sink back as the drugs take way
Through my veins I feel my life begin to fade
What’s done is done and it ain’t ever gonna change
It’s the only thing in life that keeps me sane

My skin turns pale as the drugs destroy my soul within
It’s poison, complete, bittersweet, defeat I’ll never win
I’ll give in. Let go of the life I wish I never began
This man is sick so I ask myself, well what if I believed in something
We’d be alive, but now we’re nothing

But it made me feel
It set me free
It cloaked the pain that tortured me
It made me blind I couldn’t see
The only one to blame was me
It was my selfish lies that caused the end of his life
And now he’s gone and so are we
We’re all just fading memories
Destined to fail

Destined to fail
I’m falling faster
Gaining speed to a fate I can’t believe
I’m a disaster
A one-way ticket to hell made just for me
I’m sorry mother
I’m not the man that you thought that I would be
Now it’s all over
Hell’s awaiting me