When Will It End

No way out - neither through screaming nor through crying
Only fleeing and hiding seems to make sense
Day by day I go through hell - my own one created by me
In me hope keeps me alive - nothing else to hold on to
I want to end it - I have to end it - I want to leave it all behind
It's grinding me - I have to liberate me - I have to leave it all behind
Recalling the memories - when will it end
What I left behind. The feeling is so real. Recalling what I’ve lost - pushes my power away
Regarding what I leave behind, the feeling is still so real - so painful
Recalling what I’ve lost pushes away every power
This numb feeling the agony has to end - no other thought enters my head
Nothing else has a name
Freedom, freedom - I don't care how much to pay