Forever Before

I've never begun a forever before
Been using up life like I knew I had more
One breath at a time
The only one there
Another day to be alone in
Another lake to throw a stone in

I'm soft in the heart
Where hard edges align
I try to be a good friend
Most of the time
Too much of a good thing
When even freedom wears thin
So what's gotta end
For forever to begin?

Fear, fearless
Oh fear, fearlessness

I've never begun right from the start
I was thinking that love
Was a commiserate heart
I'd begin by backing in
Just so I could back out
Another way to be alone is
Be the lake you throw the stone in

Fear, fearless
Oh fear, fearless
Oh fear, fearless
Oh fear, fearlessness

I've never begun a forever before
Until I didn't want anything else anymore
All the time in the world
You can't begin to prepare
For forever before
She's sleeping right over there