Confused Trauma

I grew up in a tiny town
So much love from my loved ones
I went astray from this life
And everything dragged me down
Regret is sin, yes I know
But how do I, erase them from my life

I feel the pain regretting
How my life is ruined
But I can't heal them now
Confused trauma to me

When I recall back everything
I feel it is heartache to me
But I need to forget my deeds
And seek the one who gives life eternally