Safer

I know that I have issues
I face them, I swear

Think I overcome them
Then turn they're still there

Wish that I was different
I'd like to let go
But when I try to change
There's my past
Saying no

Maybe it's all
'Cause of dad
His new kids, his new wife
Or why not just blame mom
Who's been nuts my whole life

When you've felt so alone since the
Moment of birth and
You've struggled to find your own true
Sense of worth
When it seems there is no one
Across this whole earth
To depend upon you carry on
Just like you
Always do

'Cause it's safer to rely on you
Oh, it's safer to rely on you

Seen a million movies all selling true love
Fantasies I'm not sure that I'm worthy of.

Caution to the wind
My heart's been on display
Still the end result is it's not gone my way
So when I date
Some new guy
Who's a deadbeat or jerk

At least I'm not so crushed
When it all doesn't work

When you once, unafraid
Wore your heart on your sleeve
And the ones that you loved
Chose to just turn and leave

Every day it gets harder to
Somehow believe
You will survive
So you strive

Just to keep up your guard
'Cause it's safer to hold every card
Oh, it's safer to hold every card

I feel out of control
I feel safe on the ground
I go building up walls
Yet I wish to be found

A true contradiction to wich I am bound
As I keep on spinning around and around

And I look at the people
Who've worked it all out
And I wonder why I'm still
A bundle of doubt
And sometimes I wanna just stand up and shout

"Just commit and deal with it
Before your live flies by
Don't let your life fly by"

But is it safer? Maybe it's safer
If I don't try