Interlude

Interlude

All I ever wanted was to know the truth/ Seeking
Jesus at 16 meaning my middle youth/ Man I really
hungered and had this inner thirst/ Absurd the thought of
me even missin' a day of church/ Man it felt like heaven,
especially Bible study/ I had my Bible pen and pad sittin'
next to my buddies/ the Word had us open especially
certain verses/ spendin' hours in worship man it just felt so
perfect/ and then after the service out on the parking lot/
laughin' and rappin' for hours afterwards we talked a lot/
felt like your second family for me felt like my first/ we lost
our ties when my grandmother died I kept in hurt/
remember certain ministers inspired you to learn/ you had
anxiety inside and just waitin' your turn/ people announce
they callin' jumpin' and shoutin'/ that dun dunt dun dunt it
was so arousin'

Give us the truth that's what we need/ lying leaders
been deceivin' us since we were seeds/ Give us the truth
that's what we need/ Teachers and preachers teach us the
things that set us free/ Give us the truth that's what we
need/ Parents teach us bout Jesus before we get older/
Give us the truth that's what we need/ Sin is spreading and
the world is getting colder

Then that first year progressed and turned into
five/ learning so much and I'm comin' in touch closer with
God/ some things were gettin' sticky I mean real sticky/ I'm
trippin' I'm wonderin' was Jesus even really with me/ Man
I felt numb meanin' I lost my feelin'/ People standin',
dancin', liftin' hands while I was chillin'/ no longer loved
the sermons felt like I wasn't learnin'/ the topics taught on
weren't touchin' my inner yearnings/ and then some
behavior seemed like counterfeit revival/ I looked for
Scriptures that supported this off in the Bible/ yet I couldn't
find it I felt blinded/ I thought it was a demon in error I tried
to bind it/ but nothin' happened here comes depression
maybe when they threw the Holy Spirit that I didn't catch
Him/ did I miss my blessin'? Felt unprotected/ in the midst
of a war scarred without my weapon

Then I left St. Louis on a tour with Cross
Movement/ and who would have knew it these dudes have
also been through it/ I shared my brokenness feelings of
hopelessness/ for so long faked my emotions no one even
noticed it/ yet it was obvious God in His providence/ put me
with people to guide me and got me outta this/ and then my
other brother T.R.U.T.H. began to share the same/ I almost
wept I saw the steps it took to bear the name/ without truth
left me in utter confusion, without truth left me with subtle
delusions, without truth no longer fought to win/ without
truth drove me back into sin/ the depth of this journey can't
be described in words/ this is just the tip of the iceberg/ but
from now until my death this is what I'll do/ I'm learning
standing and I'll fight for truth